I Should Be Happy, But I'm Not
Technology takes a backseat for a moment here.
I should be happy today, but I'm not. This great country has taken a great step forward in equality and opportunity for all with the election of Obama as president. It's a day to celebrate progress, and change, and hope. But for 25 million or more Americans, today is not exactly a happy day.
With 91% of the precincts in the state of California reporting, Proposition 8, which would ban gay marriage and nullify the loving unions of tens of thousands of gay couples, is leading. With only 9% of precincts still to report and a deficit of over 350,000 votes to make up (and most of those precincts located in rural areas), it's unlikely that Proposition 8 will be defeated. It's my deep hope that in a couple of days, when some 3 million absentee ballots are counted, I'll be proven wrong. I'm not hopeful, however.
In Arkansas, voters overwhelmingly approved a measure banning gays and lesbians from adopting children. Who else is banned from adopting children in that state? Some, but not all, felons. So in Arkansas, as in Florida before it, gay men and women are equivocated with criminals against the state and therefore denied the same rights enjoyed by those who are not gay.
Arizona and Florida have become the next in a long line of states that has banned same-sex marriage by significant margin.
But it's California, my place of birth and still very much my home in my heart, that has broken my heart. As California goes, so often does the rest of the nation. If the largest and often most progressive state in the country cannot get a majority of its citizens to see that we all deserve equal (not special) rights under the law regardless of our sexual orientation, I hold little hope for the rest of this nation. The religious right, who saw this battle in California as armageddon, will be emboldened and work prolifically to ban same-sex marriage in the rest of the nation on a state-by-state basis. Once that ban is in place, especially on a constitutional level, it makes it vastly more difficult to reverse that ban and write in to the state's constitution "sorry, we were wrong."
I do not appreciate being treated as a second-class citizen, with basic civil — no, human rights denied to me. There is no fairness, no justice, no equality — core American values all — in that. As much as I know that the Obama presidency will bring positive change, and perhaps even, finally, the passage of the Employment Non-Discrimination Act, and perhaps basic inheritance and hospital visitation protections under the law for gay and lesbian couples, I am no longer hopeful.
I thank my family and friends who voted against Proposition 8. Maybe I'm being typically American and taking the short view rather than the long, wanting instant satisfaction from my politicians and their policies. Maybe I should take heed when Obama said last night that his election is "the answer that led those who have been told for so long by so many to be cynical, and fearful, and doubtful of what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day." Maybe in a few days we'll be able to celebrate together, but I'm not holding my breath.

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